Girl and City

The lovely .maitai gave me the Blogger Buddie Award!

I am passing this award on to:
Connie, even though she hasn’t updated her blog in a BILLION YEARS, because she is my ever-so-witty internet twin who sends me funny emails and gchats from time to time.
Courtney, because she is the sweetest girl ever who checks in on me from time to time like the sister I never had and reads all my blog entries and leaves the most encouraging comments. <3
Jen, because I have known her since I first started blogging and she has always been a loyal blog buddy.

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Mayaari is also having a giveaway! Full of awesome things like fake lashes and jumbo eye pencils that I desperately need!

Speaking of things I need, Narita is also giving out loads of MAC goodies!

Thank you blogosphere, for being oh so generous in these hard economic times! Muah! xoxo

I got an award from Pursuit of Matching Accessories! Thank you honey!

The goals of this award…
1. As a dedication to those who love blogging and love to encourage friendships through blogging
2. To seek the reasons why we all love blogging
3. Put the award in one post as soon as you receive it!
4. Don’t forget to mention the person who gave you the award
5. Answer the awards question by writing the reason you love blogging

I love blogging because I have a ton of stories and I love sharing them with others. Under the anonymous embrace of the Internet, I can do so without feeling restricted in my analysis of the people or events. Plus, it’s a great way to make friends, and bloggers make good friends :)

6. Tag and distribute this award to as many people as you like
7. Don’t forget to notify the award receivers and put their links in your post

I’m tagging:
by teresa wu
Confessions of a Twenty Something Year Old
Live It, Love It
More is Better

Sometimes I see bloggers talk about stuff they received from other bloggers, and I’m wondering, where are they meeting such generous people?
Of course, I have become fast friends with some of my readers over the course of my blogging history (heck, the wedding I’m attending this weekend is for a girl who followed my blog four years ago). But aside from the odd birthday present (given and received), I don’t usually receive packages from bloggers.

And then I discovered something called “giveaways.” I’ve never participated in a giveaway before, but today I stumbled upon two. Sassy Jadore’s giveaway and AbcGrrrL’s giveaway.
You’re probably thinking, “Where have you been all this time? How can you be so interested by giveaways?” Maybe this phenomenon is normal for all of you folks, but I don’t encounter this everyday. I had to investigate who these people were that were giving stuff away for free.

As I started reading Sassy Jadore‘s profile, I thought, “This girl could be my BFF!” We have similar cyber names¹, we both love Korean dramas and Korean music, we both subscribe to the ‘fashion > makeup’ belief, and her blog plays music by Lady GaGa. Plus, she lives in San Francisco, the city I hope to move to one day. I am kind of jealous. Did I also mention she’s giving stuff away to strangers for free? She must be one cool chica.

I discovered a similar phenomenon with ABCGrrrl. She shops in Japantown, loves mochi and other Asian sweets, one of her favourite movies is Slumdog Millionaire, and she became RL friends with bloggers.

The result of my investigation? I think giveaway bloggers are my new BFFs.

1. Although I suspect this may be because we both watched – and loved – My Sassy Girl. Nonetheless, the fact that we both identified with the heroine shows we’re meant to be. [↩]

I am completely infatuated with a particular DreamyEyedBoy in my class right now. It all started one day after class when I was ranting about the way our first group report had been marked. DEB was sitting near the boy who was originally listening to my rant, but that boy tuned out and instead DEB gave me his undivided attention. He was very sensible the whole time, asking me what I was going to say to the professor and what I wanted to get out of such a talk. He also consoled and graciously complimented me:

Him: Honestly, I wouldn’t worry about the mark too much.
Me: It’s not just about the mark. If I deserved this mark, I wouldn’t be feeling so frustrated right now. But I don’t! Our team did so well. This marking rubric is completely unjust!
Him: But you know he’s not going to change the mark. And honestly, this mark means nothing in the larger picture. When you’re looking for a job, they’re going to be looking at all the other things. Do you have extra-curriculars?
Me: Yes! But –
Him: Are you likable? I’ll answer that, YES. Are you smart? Yes. You have so much going for you, what are you worried about?

It was then that I noticed how beautiful his eyes were. They were a light shade of green, and I felt like I could lose myself looking into their brilliance. I had to look away. His eyes were like an eclipse. How could I argue with him? He, the boy whose eyes made me want to melt, was telling me that I was a sweet, smart, capable girl who was above these meaningless numbers. Frankly, even if he had told me I was an ugly, stupid ogre, I still would have found it hard to argue with him. I quickly finished the conversation and escaped from his gaze lest my legs should collapse beneath me.
The strange thing is that I had never been attracted to him until that moment. He was actually on my floor in residence in first year, so it’s not like I’ve never seen him before. If someone had asked me who I thought the cutest boy in my class was, he wouldn’t have even crossed my mind. So I was thoroughly surprised to realize that my legs felt weak when I looked into his eyes. I was uncertain that this was really the case – maybe I was just tired that day? – so I confirmed it two days later by talking to him during break. Indeed, his eyes had the same noticeable affect on me: quickening heartbeat, shortening of breath, and weak knees. It’s a wonder I could hold a conversation with him at all.
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It took a lot out of me to write The One about SG and MFL so this post isn’t going to be very exciting, but there are some things I just need to say:

• Did you notice how my grammar and writing got better/neater/cleaner over the years? I try not to edit my archives because I want to preserve the naivety of my childhood entries but MAN are they embarrassing to read! I mean, I’m all for being genuine, but could I make myself sound any more immature?
• Courtney: Believe me, it hurts me to read all that myself. Especially because I had to read those entries individually as I was collecting them – it was like a HUGE dose of emo that I wasn’t really prepared for. I couldn’t work after that. I just kind of sat there, zoned out. It was intense (and kind of trippy actually), but hopefully it’ll be the last time I ever have to go through the whole love-story-then-heartbreak, at least in one sitting. I also think I’ve consumed my weight in chocolate. =/
• Tiff: “Nothing worse than trying to piece together a relationship when it’s falling apart and then trying to piece together the pieces of a broken heart.” Great line! I’m incapable of describing things in compact ways, but you’ve just summed it up really neatly. If I had an award for Best Comment, I’d definitely give it to you! “Treasure your memories but don’t dwell on them” – well hopefully this is the last of the “dwelling.”

So that’s that. Now I have exams to focus on. But before I end this entry, I’m just going to do a little of the “tooting one’s own horn” and promote my services as an awesome email pal. So if you’re bored at work/school and want some amusement, you can look forward to conversations such as these:

so i’ve decided i should be a better female and take more care of myself. like cut my nails and comb my hair and shave and stuff. it really sucks but i don’t want to feel like a cavewoman standing next to some of the finer specimens of my gender. therefore, am trying to improve.
but it still sucks balls.

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